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Ave, 2007, vale 2006.
Dec. 31st, 2006 10:41 amHeretofore, I've always liked New Year's more for the champagne and staying up 'til midnight (not that I'm not awake until midnight most nights, but it's a carry-over from childhood, when this was the one night of the year staying up 'til midnight was not merely allowed, but actually approved) and the tiny brilliant jewel of numerological symbolism than for any strong feelings about the NEWNESS of the new year.
I theorize (because, as you may have noticed, EVERYTHING in my life needs an intellectual apparatus) that this is in part because up until May 2004, my life was structured by the academic calendar, in which the lump of winter surrounding Christmas and New Year's was more in the nature of hitting pause on the VCR to get up, go to the bathroom, get a snack, than it was hitting eject to put in a new tape.
If that metaphor makes even the slightest sense, which I doubt.
However, comma, I'm not an academic any longer, and that fundamental truth may finally be sinking in. (What can I say? Deprogramming takes a while.) And I do actually have strong feelings about things I want to change, things I want to do better about, things that have--frankly--sucked; this particular New Year's is feeling like an opportunity to at least ARTICULATE these things, even knowing that I'm not going to wake up on January 1st and miraculously COPE with them all.
So.
1. Physical health. I need to exercise. Despite the boredom of it all. And despite my chronic health problems (no, they're not serious, just tiresome, and no, I'm not going to talk about it). In 2007 I want to find workarounds so that I can maintain some sort of exercise regimen.
2. Piano. Part of the suckitude of the last quarter of 2006 was that I got very weird and depressed and defeatist about the piano. I want this to change. Note to self: buying new sheet music is really not a crime.
3. Finances. Keeping up with the bookkeeping of same. I know WHAT needs to happen, and have for years. I need to work on noticing when I start to backslide, and then, you know, NOT.
4. Summerdown. Due August 1st. 'Nuff said.
5. Housekeeping. I am a slatternly housekeeper. The house deserves better.
I could go on--I'm a perfectionist: there are always more flaws to work on--but I think those are the important things, the sources of welling discontent with myself.
No, okay. One more, and the reason I chose the particular user icon I did:
6. I will not try to "keep up" with other authors of my acquaintance. I work as fast and as well as I work. Nobody else can be my benchmark. The creatures that mutter in dimly lit corners of my brain are just going to have to find something else to mutter about. This topic is off the list.
I theorize (because, as you may have noticed, EVERYTHING in my life needs an intellectual apparatus) that this is in part because up until May 2004, my life was structured by the academic calendar, in which the lump of winter surrounding Christmas and New Year's was more in the nature of hitting pause on the VCR to get up, go to the bathroom, get a snack, than it was hitting eject to put in a new tape.
If that metaphor makes even the slightest sense, which I doubt.
However, comma, I'm not an academic any longer, and that fundamental truth may finally be sinking in. (What can I say? Deprogramming takes a while.) And I do actually have strong feelings about things I want to change, things I want to do better about, things that have--frankly--sucked; this particular New Year's is feeling like an opportunity to at least ARTICULATE these things, even knowing that I'm not going to wake up on January 1st and miraculously COPE with them all.
So.
1. Physical health. I need to exercise. Despite the boredom of it all. And despite my chronic health problems (no, they're not serious, just tiresome, and no, I'm not going to talk about it). In 2007 I want to find workarounds so that I can maintain some sort of exercise regimen.
2. Piano. Part of the suckitude of the last quarter of 2006 was that I got very weird and depressed and defeatist about the piano. I want this to change. Note to self: buying new sheet music is really not a crime.
3. Finances. Keeping up with the bookkeeping of same. I know WHAT needs to happen, and have for years. I need to work on noticing when I start to backslide, and then, you know, NOT.
4. Summerdown. Due August 1st. 'Nuff said.
5. Housekeeping. I am a slatternly housekeeper. The house deserves better.
I could go on--I'm a perfectionist: there are always more flaws to work on--but I think those are the important things, the sources of welling discontent with myself.
No, okay. One more, and the reason I chose the particular user icon I did:
6. I will not try to "keep up" with other authors of my acquaintance. I work as fast and as well as I work. Nobody else can be my benchmark. The creatures that mutter in dimly lit corners of my brain are just going to have to find something else to mutter about. This topic is off the list.
