disengaged

[truepenny]

I'm back. I think. Or at least I have something to say.

Dissertation defense is Tuesday, November 4th, 10 a.m. CST.

I'm not nearly as nervous about it as I probably should be.

My dissertation director has been encouraging me to take the first ten minutes to talk about "The Project," and I finally emailed her today to say, No, I have nothing to say and no need to say it. I'm completely unfazed by the balance of power inherent in being in a room with five professors grilling me like St. Thingummy on the gridiron. My own blasé attitude is worrying me a little, but not enough that I feel compelled to work myself into a state over it. I need to convince myself to read over the dissertation again this weekend, so that I have some vague idea of what I actually said, but I'm not sure I can be bothered.

I'm over this fucking thing.

In other news, I'll have a flash piece, "Queen of Swords," up at AlienSkin for the month of November, and "Sidhe Tigers" (which if you put a knife to my throat, I'd call a prose poem) will be appearing in Lady Churchill's Rosebud Wristlet 13.

Sidhe Tigers, the necklace, is the work of elisem. Give her a round of applause, Gentle Readers. She's brilliant.

Comments

[lisajulie.livejournal.com]

It sounds to me as if you have reached that perfect state:

apathy.

And a good state it is.

I was made aware of it when I was accused by a Senior Vice President that I didn't seem sufficiently panic-stricken. I said "I'm beyond panic." She responded: "What is beyond panic?" and I replied "apathy."

It is a fine, fine place to be. You will go in, wow them, and emerge with Magick Initials after your name. And well-deserved ones at that.

[calanthe-b.livejournal.com]

Good luck to you--and I'm sure you'll do well. I'll be thinking of you.

[libskrat]

As I shall be at work at the time, I shall make sacrifice unto Mighty Plush Cthulhu on your behalf.

Suggestions for an appropriate sacrifice? Something with lots of blood, obviously, but what?

[skalja.livejournal.com]

*wishes you luck*

[pameladean]

That sounds like a dandy attitude. They're just guys doing stuff. And you've done stuff too. I'll be thinking of you on Tuesday.

Pamela

[vass]

Sidhe Tigers, the necklace, is the work of elisem. Give her a round of applause, Gentle Readers. She's brilliant.

One round of applause for elisem, and another for truepenny, both for the two publications and for the Dis.

[elisem.livejournal.com]

At the risk of embarrassing you, dear truepenny, I cannot resist posting the photo (http://dd-b.lighthunters.net/picpage.cgi/gallery/Elise's%20Jewelry%20on%20Sarah/ddb%2020030421%20800-40.jpg) DDB took of you wearing the necklace in question. (I'm sorry the link is so wide, but I do not know how to shorten them.)

[oursin.livejournal.com]

Possibly there's a Point of No Return where the flutterings and jitterings cease. (This may be another version of 'when a man is to be hanged in a fortnight...')
Very best of wishes for the defence: if I can work out the time differential I'll be thinking of you.

[libskrat]

<helpful>You should be about six hours ahead of us. Try 4 pm.</helpful>

[oursin.livejournal.com]

Sounds about right: thanks!

[heleninwales.livejournal.com]

Right. 4pm. Noted. Will think supportive thoughts.

I'm sure it will go swimmingly.

[oracne.livejournal.com]

Have marked my calendar. You share the date with the Philadelphia mayoral election between John Street and Sam Katz.

[rliz.livejournal.com]

And Street won, so!

Truepenny, I just saw this. I hope it went quite well, and I'm glad you're closer to being done-done-done with this.